Roland Jupiter 6 ambient arpeggiations

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"I went to my studio to lament over how messy it is. I haven't wanted to be in here at all. I just want to sit and do nothing. 2023 was awful. 2024 feels like more of the same. Health worries come and stay. Maybe I'm just getting old and my body gave up fighting for me.

Well, my studio IS a disaster. I sit here WANTING to sell my Jupiter 6, but I feel I'd regret it. I don't know how to clean this place up to make it worth keeping these things. Worse, the things I do have listed don't even get people interested. Nothing like "Hey, I want this but would you knock this much off?" No, just no interest. Can't tell if the gear is crap, if the money's gone, or what - but all my gear sits. Useless in its current spot, hardly any interest in it, but I guess I had more interest in playing my Jupiter than cleaning my room, so there's that, right?

If you're curious how I've been holding up - every day I want to talk to my mom. I want to tell her about what's going on in my life. Sometimes instead I just write a note to her on my phone with what I wanted to tell her. It's not the same, but I guess it's something. I did get the desk that she used her whole marriage. That was nice, I like that desk. Turns out it was my Great Grandma's on my dad's side (We got a lot of stuff from his side, but nothing from my mom's side, weird). I like having all these antique heirlooms. They're probably not worth anything, but they're worth something to me. I am documenting them for my kids so they know where these things came from. We also got my parent's vintage Sears Silvertone Radio Phonograph. I think it was made in 1966. We've been listening to old vinyls and it's been great. I did buy a new needle. I doubt the old one was ever changed. And I'm pretty sure I have to fix a speaker, the right side doesn't play. I'd have thought these would go for some money, but I guess they weren't great. I dunno. I love how it sounds. I love how it looks. Reminds me of my parents. It's all I have left of them."