For what is missing | A melancholy improvisation with the Rhodes and AN1x

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"Tonight I was moving stuff around in my studio and came across an old photo of me when I was 1 or 2... But I noticed that there was another photo behind it. I took it out and saw myself, at what must have been 6 months? I can't really tell. I was a baby. Seeing this photo made me feel strange in a way that's hard to explain - part of me felt bad for my parents, who don't have that little baby anymore, which I understand - as I watch my own babies grow into their older selves. You just see time ripping it away from you. So I see this picture of me and think that I went through that process. I guess time is to blame, not me. And then I just look at that photo and think a whole series of timelines could have happened - I wondered where it possibly could have gone based on all sorts of inputs (whether we moved or did not move to different places), I just had this potential that, as I get older, fades away.

I think that's what spurred my sentiment as I wrote this song."